Was It a Lot of Soul Searching?

i'm interested in what was happening inside you as a young, 14 year old boy. Were you doing a lot of soul searching? Was it just unquestionable for you that your kind of path was not conventional,. Did you go seeking spirituality, or did you just kind of, did the path find you? I had a a very life threatening of experience when i was hit by a speeding ambulance at the age of nine. Bu it's a long story, but my mother ended up having to go to southeast asia to join my father there.