The Price of Insecurity

When I go to Taco Bell I'm excited because it means that I don't have to wait for that sweet quesadilla. But also I know that there's some kind of price for that instantaneous fulfillment that comes from it which is gonna look like horrific bowel movements weight gain puffiness exhaustion bad dreams and a thousand other fucked up results. And then if the idea is, this is something when I was at a Romdoss retreat, I'll never forget. Roshi Joan Halifax, who is this incredible teacher, a Zen Roshi, who is doing this amazing lecture on the Zen Koan. The idea being all your knowingness is what's fucking you up. This is not