Anything that's going to change your perception is going to give you a lack of control internally whether we like it or not. And even when you're in the medicine, it's almost impossible to let go. There was a moment where I was like if I fully let go here, I'm concerned I won't snap back. But that's fear speaking, right? That's the voice in my head. It doesn't get to be in control anymore. The medicine has taught me that I don't always get to have control and sometimes it's okay to let go of it. As long as I'm aware that I don’t abuse it. Like this stuff is not fun.