I think what matters how you've learned to embrace all adversity including the cessation of your breathing is the whole thing it can't just be skittles and jizzing. If if we are spiritual beings having a material existence and the ego is this bad thing then maybe we shouldn't be so afraid of that world. Maybe we'veYeah maybe we've just talked ourselves into it it's the it's the ego running rampant you know and convincing us yes  i'm going to lose my train of thought here but i don't even know where I was in 1969. been born back in the 60s you know you should have been a you know 20 years old in 1969 would not have