Too many pastors live with a low-grade ache that their ministry—and they themselves—simply don't measure up. Quietly, comparison creeps in. We look at the growth of others' churches, their charisma, their staff, their buildings… and wonder, What's wrong with me?
 In today's episode, I share deeply from my own journey of wrestling with these very questions. I was driven, angry, and often frustrated with my people and context—trying to build something God never asked of me.
 But freedom came. Slowly. Through emotional honesty, interior silence, and deep formation.
 We'll explore:
  -  The deadly cost of living from your false self 
-  How to spot comparison in your soul (and how to resist it) 
-  Why embracing your unique call is a spiritual breakthrough 
-  The ancient desert wisdom that reshapes your ministry success metrics  
If you're a pastor, leader, or ministry worker who's tired of chasing an illusion of "success," this episode will give you permission to stop striving—and instead, lead from a place of joy, contentment, and union with Jesus.