Is There a Spectrum of Intensity in Your Suffering?

"I feel like crap today, which I wasn't alive to. You feel like you're in this trapped in a corner," he says. "Your only choices are to stay alive and suffer or to end it and not suffer anymore." In spring 2019 until this moment, how close have you got? "It seems like ideating is a spectrum of intensity where it's just kind of like, oh, yeah, I feel like crap ... there's no reason to go on convincing yourself with that"