I'm in a Mid Life Crisis Right Now

i've developed a good amount of wisdom as a result of having these negative, dramatic experiences as a child. But my happiness is at an old time low, and that's why i'm having mid life crisis right now. My mind is like, you're unhappy. Youre unhappier unhappy. Fix it. Fix and fix it. And it realizes that me developing personal strength on my own is really the only key to me to complete happiness. Yes, i got lots of wisdom with that. I an t j shadow. But what point is it if i have no joy in my life? And the only way i'm able to have joys by exploring my subconscions