I'm in a Relationship and I'd Like to Hook Up With My Boyfriend

I'm worried that I now have no self control with the past fling and I could easily do it again We are because how's your boyfriend gonna know it's back in your own town? Unless unless paths aren't crossing we are genuinely close friends. It feels very out of character for me and out of line with my values Especially because cheating is what caused my parents divorce. However, I don't know if this is a sign that my life is on the wrong track or whether I just made an impulsive mistake. As this is my first long-term relationship  it almost feels too settled And I think I may be freaking out. You're feeling a bit too like is