Is the Counter Transference Coming From My Neurosis?

When i used to be more freudian, early in my career, if some one came to me for an interview, saythe an applicant for training, I would be busily trying to figure out their diagnosis. Once i moved in a clinian direction, i i'm not actively thinking about all that stuff. And after they leave my office, i just want to sit for half an hour and study how i'm feeling. How am i feeling? What are my fantasies? Tried a little of free association. Well, that's that off aproduces big insight into the patient. Is this counter transference coming from my neurosis, or is this something being induced or ev