How Much Sham Do You Feel When You Experiment Sexually?

"I always thought, you know, once I'm married to a good Christian man, then all of this guilt and shame I feel surrounding sex will just magically go away," she says. "But it didn't. It stayed with me and it continued to cause me to feel dirty and unclean or not even want to experiment sexually so much" She was more sexually experienced going into the marriage than her husband but felt like she had ruined him by being too adventurous in their relationship. 'It took quite a while even after becoming an atheist to let go of those feelings of being the corruptor'