Are You Repentant of This?

I never ever really felt that I had a relationship with Jehovah and the thing is is you can't really have a relationship with a God that doesn't exist so my prayers were empty. After they disfellowshipped me I had two Jehovah's Witnesses roommates that moved out and almost instantly and kind of just left me with all the bills. Then my boss who happened to be the elder that disfellowShipped me talked to his boss and they got me fired. Wow so in a very very short time I had lost everything I lost my my family and everyone that I ever was friends with and my job and soon my place to live.