I am seeking some profound rest, satisfaction, peace fulfilment. And the ways i have been seeking it in this world and the next, through worldly activity and religious activity. It can at best smooth things generate a nicer, nicer environment. But it's not satisfying, not fulfilment. So whatever 's not satisfying, we wanted to be satisfying. Our whole project was, how can i be fulfilled? How can i be deeply satisfied? I do not find fulfilment in wealth, in pleasure, in children, in a job, in power status, in nowhere."