Catholicism Isn't as as Is Arbitrarian

I don't really I mean I just think like far to describe my own experience of like faith. It's not really one that was felt like voluntary. Like it felt more like apathynese and things like things that like I just recognized it's true. And then like applying that in life only further like kind of like like testing the waters like okay maybe I don't really believe but like you know trying it out and things like thatIt just like convert it's you could probably cast this as like positive narcissism as you're saying or whatever.