The Opposite of a Diction Is Connection

When i was that young am i really did feel like, really alone. I felt alienated, t feel like anyone understood me. And when i did try to get help, lik from my parents, for example, the they were an't they got angry at me. They didn't know how to help ot, i was shamed and that kind of thing. It wasn't approached in the right way. The only way i knew how to do that was to turn inward on myself. If i could have autonomy over my body, then, you know, nothing else could hurt me,. ecause i was going to be like the one in control, kind of.