Madhav: Do you lose your sense of death anxiety when becoming a Swamiji within the order? And if so, how would you describe that feeling? Would you say it's liberating? Or could it be potentially dangerous to lose that sense of deathxiety? Madhav: Yes, many people don't know that. Among the elaborate rituals which are there before you become a monk, one ritual is where you perform the funeral rites for your ancestors.