I think that there isn't ever one particular reason. And the different selves of how we answer things change and grow. But in adding to that is the emotional space of loss or trama, and there's been other things in my life, is that because i had that pain or that loss that one carries with themselves, is that from there you're able to ampathize with other people. You see, so it was no longer just on on the aesthetic. It wasn't just on the idea of representing nature. It really was supposed to be nting an inner nature within the work, or things that couldn't necessarily be represented. I used those emotions because i understood those emotions,