Meditation and the Pandemic

i used to be really frustrated with myself when i was younger. And i think it's probably because of that visualization thing that i just can't do. I spent a lot of time doing meditation during the pandemic, and one of the things they ask you to do is like count to ten and then start over again. Lik, all meditation kind of teaches you that there's a lot of things with your mind that are your patterns,. That you're set in your patterns, that you can change. The more i did it, the easier it was, till i hold the image in my mind. It doesn't matter what i think of, i cand think of a glass of water