i remember saying, i actually think i could really, i would be really good at a break up. And that was like my little eneagram nine, who, you know, we avoid confrontation. That was the first little step into realizing that i was dissociated. I was just staying in what was safe. S funny, especially when you consider the oneness, the idea that all of any of the major religions and spiritual povs would say that, though there was the void, the void became one. The one is playing all these games. That's what lila means, play of all these formso the manifest sponting from the unmanifest.