I really don't ever want to be homeless or poor again. And i feel like i spend money in a way where, if all the sudden streaming didnit continue to be a thing for me,. I think it'd be awesome to explore any of these things. One is authority issues. Then there's also this element of control that you seem to work well with people that let you stay in control. There's another part of you that's sort of like, no, actually, we acually thrive on chaos.