The Chaos of Life

I am holding a fistful of needles right now. Which we... I normally do at night when I take my peptides. They were like ch... Oh, do you? Yeah. And they are the most killable things. You have a ball of spikes in new hands. It's only chaos if it's not working. Is that okay? Like, what happens when actually everything's okay? Are you like... Does it make you want to receive love? Or is it adding to chaos? Honestly though, I am at the point where chaos, when people... That's a judgment. We have different tolerances. So if I call my life chaos, I can't handle it