Pregnancy - I'm Not a Mam, but I Want to Be a Man

Pregnancy has been an extremely large initiation for me, and i've gone through many phases. And they were very challenging at times. I went through an intense spiritual calarity awakening about a month i two weeks before i conceived. There was all this crazy fucking stuff going on. Crazyli, we picked the nursery room before we bought it, and there was a cockroach in there when i went. And if you look it up, that's the symbol of fertility in the nursery. A was like, yo. This is crazy. Av never been so grateful that a cockroach is in my house a every then i got pragnat.