"When i'm in that place, absolutely it feels like everyone, not just you, but everyone, is just drai ing me and and trying to take from me," she says. "You might as well have had sex with a wapper junior for something that means nothing." 'I now recognize him a little bit,' the actress adds of her ex-boyfriend. "'If you do mushrooms once a year, you're a dragaduct rint' I mean, right? And nothing in life is black and white'"