The Importance of Death

I think the whole death that I went through in the way the spirit set it up by making sure that I that I lose my kidneys was necessary because I needed to die. And so I was, I couldn't even think of the idea of what if I didn't die. Because the death ripped me in half. It took everything literally, literally. Yeah. That's a true rock bottom. Would you be at the capacity you're at if you had not gone through that, if you were so afraid, knowing it was coming, what you were? If you resisted it, which you did, but had you not go through that true threshold?Because everything is like a birth at the