Why Conversion Is Not Reproducible

Conversion relies on a rare experience that fundamentally changes what we conceive the self is or could be. What is necessary to produce such a strong life-changing experience is a fall. Even when both of these conditions for conversion are met, it is still to some degree not up to us whether we do convert. Old habits die hard and old models haunt us for our entire lives. Conversion then is an act of grace given to the fortunate, but not something we can make meaningful strides towards ourselves. But there is one last solution Gerard offers us as individuals living in the end times that can be reproduced. This does not require grace and can be willed by us.