The Magic of Things That Are Not Available

i think what is happening is that you enter this very, very primal state. And it has a very particular feeling. It feels very right. You feel very much alive. i have done a similar thing, actually, at home, that felt similar to me. In my home, there's a lot of wood, and sometimes this wood cracks. But obviously you cannot provoke this as just happens from time to time. So for some time, i was just sitting in my room on a chair, and just waiting for the crack, just for this sound. After a few minutes, something happens. Sometimes you have to wait for a long time. If you're very excited about something like this