Truma is generational, i have learned. If your grandmother was raped, you're going to live with it. Even if they don't tell, their behaviour will be so bizarre in particular ways. There's so much drama in my mother's past and she never these stories i tell are the only ones she told. So i think it always gets passed on. How do hear from it? I don't know. We'll keep living, and we'll find out how.