The Ego's Way of Slowing Down the Process

"I've been on a little bit of a Thomas Merton kick okay and he was saying that despair is a form of laziness. I have thanks to people like you been experiencing the other side of that cork so to speak" "It's just so annoying to like have extended periods of that extended periods not happening because I've like found a great ketamine dealer or MDMA dealer but just the extended periods of it that are just happening" 'When you're there you're like why did I ever not want to be here St. being'