I think at the time our leadership didn't know how to deal with mental health. It was still too early in Canada's involvement in 2009, and our staff, like, my sergeant tells me this day, I didn't know what to do with you. So if he didn't knowHow to help me, how am I supposed to get help? I didn't have anyone to be like, hey, this is normal, this is okay. And then the rest of the op just went fucking downhill from there. That was the moment when you look at my TBI paperwork, and the stuff from Veterans Affairs, that's the check in the box for them where they're like, y