You Are Not a Monster. It's Not for Hurt

I just want to unpack where those thoughts come from and how hard they are to carry. Because I just relate to this a lot, lost and lonely. My favorite quote for so long was the destruction of the world is the last almost desperate attempt to save myself from being crushed by it. It took me a long time to realize that not just unhealthy, but that's not how I move through the world. You can make a thousand irresponsible hurtful choices. You can push away a hundred lovers. But that doesn't mean that you yourself are a monster or you are broken or you are hardwired. And loneliness eats the way it people, the way nothing else does.