John had little actual experience of sea kiaking, but had always felt drawn to the ocean in the abstract. John grew up doing a lot of back country camping and was a competent outdoorsman. But putting together a grant application required a kind of administrative fastidiousness he didn't always possess. To enjoy ourselves, we would need to feel comfortable, not just in the wilderness, but also with him as a leader. We knew him before he became a professional guide, and our perception of his expertise lagged behind the reality.
It was meant to mark the start of their lives out of college, but the adventure quickly turned into a nightmare. Beginning with what seemed to be a lucky whale sighting, three friends set out on a sea-kayaking trip through Glacier Bay National Park in Alaska, watching out for bears, and having a good time, when tragedy struck.
In recounting the days preceding and following the accident, which seriously injured one of his friends, the Times journalist Jon Mooallem explains how he was forced to reckon with his fears. Detailing the incident’s surprising repercussions, he muses on the importance of overcoming one’s fears, and finding poetry in life’s darkest moments.
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