The Other Two Books, Do You Feel Different About Em?

Every situation i've ever been in that has gone well is one that nobody believed in for a long time first. It's, i don't react well to people opening doors to i'm at my best when i feel like i have to, let, kick, kick open a door that they've locked. I always associate how much it hurts to sit still in an uncomfortable position with success meditating. But then i realize, oh, yet, your meditation is like a fractle for your whole life. And then i realize,. fuck if i'm not hurt, and i think i'm failing if there's not some kind of consideration about whether or not  i should be doing this