How to Fuck a Long Ass Time

I realized very clearly about two days ago really was yesterday that for my entire life probably since I've been about five years old I have constantly looked to what's next. Rather than being able to successfully live in the moment grasp what's going on let it go efficiently and create. This is basically like clearing or cleansing your palate before attempting any imaginal work because one thing you know we're not excellent by and large of really.