The Difference Between Self Consciousness and Recording

When i was in montreal, we used to have onest cabarets, and what i liked about them was that people would perform. And it's not only a performance for other people, but also, like, the to learn the ability to dance on the blade. I think there's another aspect going on ther. Because at least for me, it's like, er, i can have this with you  andi just me, like, doing, just expressing myself,. But it's not that, it's not a discipline.