How to Conduct a Symphonic Piece?

When i'm learning a symphonic piece, i start with the score. If i can't at least read the language, then i'm not going to conductt now. I often have a story in my head, and i usually don't share it with the people in the orchestra, in my head. But you have to be careful of that. For example, when i was doing a malafort, i really felt the first movement was life,. The second movement was a kind of bitterness and disillusionment about that life. The third movement was finally death and the end of life, and the last movement, with the child in heaven, is a after life. That may not have