"I was just a total coward is really what it boiled down to and but you know you make this one thing and you start to contemplate your own mortality which is a great thing to do" "You bring everybody brings all their baggage with them everywhere they go right there no matter where you go there you are," he says of his time at Fort Benning. 'It's kind of like a shock right well I mean it was it was terrifying in a lot of a lot of ways'