The Journey Isn't Happiness, It's Meaning

I think what i'm searching for isn't happiness, meaning. If i engage in something that gives me personal meaning is actually quite a bit of suffering and sadness. The end process of having it done, our saddness, that fockin feels like shit. Do you not? I mean, ye kno, really. We let happy be happy. It took me a long time to win. When i playin for i missed out in two championships with orland at hey Wont n two thousand and 14 and two thousand 15. And i felt empty. Thats sometimes the journey is just to theepars. Or the journey as well, it's not all happiness. Journey