i'm oket with suffering, as long as i can turn it into a beautiful story where at the end there's redemption. Every time i see a 28 it feels like a little kiss on my cheek from the in. There was blood. There was tears. My favourite person was crying all day. That wasn't my experience. And that's exactly what my therapist is always pointing out, is like, i do have this ire to to wrap it all up in a bou an. It's another way of trying to control it. Whereas, of course, there are sadnesses and sufferings that will seem pointless and chaotic and meaningless for the rest of our lives. They might never make