You Know, I've Lost My Dad My Brother My Sister's Wife

I often feel incredibly guilty because I don't feel bad right that I can just just Feel normal and then somebody asks me You know, just a random question and I start to answer it and I'll just start blubbering. Crying in front of my daughter is really really hard on me. There's this weird thing, you know, it's like there's the grief and um There's uh There's the relief that comes and then there's the guilt about the relief and And then the guilt and the regret about not doing this thing The right way or that thing or this argument or whatever. Then there's just an enormous amount of self pity that weighs in and figuring out where