Yeah, but I totally feel that. But that's definitely that's

definitely been an evolution. And I think that one thing that one realization that I had years ago was that all fear is a fear of feeling. If you trace down any fear, it's a fear of feeling something. It's that one moment. It's not about the comment on your Instagram thread. It's about what is that feeling that you have a hard time feeling or that you do anything not to feel that one feeling. So I have that revelation and somewhere in that same period of my life, I was also simultaneously realizing the liberation and the value of feeling more deeply feeling my feelings and feeling them unconditionally. And I think that that's one of the things that people struggle with even if they have the emotional intelligence to understand the value of feeling and the consequence of managing feelings, there still can be this agenda or objective connected. Like, if I feel this, then I'll get away from the shitty feeling. And so I realized the value of being able to just be with a feeling the same way I would be with my child if they were having the same feeling. And so that was extremely helpful and became its own kind of practice. It's almost like the phone example story is a good one because I realized that, okay, I thought my primary goal was to say the right thing or to give this expression of care or love. But I realized because what was most present was the feeling that I was having and I didn't feel empowering. And like, this is the primary goal is to be with myself. And so that's another thing I'm adding into anything that I've done that's been helpful is just this paradigm shift of prioritization of realizing the benefit of being with my feeling and ideally without any condition on it and realizing the consequence of suppressing, repressing and managing and manipulating my feelings. And so that awareness has shaped my, I guess, practices at any moment if I'm having a difficult time. So I kind of flow with almost like the feminine and masculine aspect, right? It's like feminine, I would say is more like the unconditional nurturing, total acceptance, compassion, energy of love, right? And then the masculine is like clarity, truth, direction, and analyzation. What is this? Right? And if you try to jump to that and you don't have enough momentum here, you either can't execute on it or you can't sustain it. And I would say the reverse is true in a sense too. If you're, and this one's a little bit more nuanced, if you're being with your feeling, right? But then you miss the flow of the impulse towards action, towards decision, towards true, the mat's incomplete as well. And so that's been a kind of practice, just to synthesize the answer to your question that I've had that I implement even in my relationship is the recognition of like, okay, what's being called for right now is this more water energy, right? This is where the momentum is. And then now we can go into this like more fire action energy. And so I bring that into my relationships into my leadership and also my leadership with myself, you know, the water side of love and the fires side of love, you know, or the, it's like the red pill, blue pill, and knowing which pill is actually needed in the moment.