In your world, gravity always goes one direction. You're very confident in the direction of gravity because it always goes one a ay. Can you imagine how anxiety provoking it would be if we did not know which direction gravity went? If gravity sometimes went up and sometimes went down, how confidently do you think i would move through life? Not at allot at right? Why? Becaus there's no consistency. So when we think about you and an alcoholic parent, like, like, tie things together for me, what am i trying to say?