"I set myself up for success that's why I was doing the stand-up because I wanted to be in a place where they were going to check me and make sure I wasn't doing these things" "You also need to feel the failure that's right you know so like that the valuable thing that could happen is to bomb the thing about numbing all of the things," he says. 'There ain't no dark until something shines'  “If you don't understand what light is the most...you're just in a bed of bones."