I've Never Feeled Like Cancelling a Live Stream

i have never been ever that i did not feel like coming on a live stream or cancelling a live streap. I've cancelled streams only when it was inevitable, when i had no option. The first port cast that i did on this channel with anug thar,  it's a the first one. When i did that, i had a hundred and four degree fever. But i still came because, well, i gave you my word, so i should keep it. So it's about being professional. It's about enjoying the thing. How do i find strength and not stop being demotivated? A, i am not de motivated. What is what exactly does