"I didn't pack it up till the very day forks ike booked the moval van, and like, oh, i have to do it now," she said. "Like, i, like, i felt really dumb." She says there's a part of you that wants to change but also one that just wants to enjoy being 19-years-old. 'If you're stuck between the two of em, or you're paralyzed and not even moving towards either one, which isn't the worst'