"I just kept basically treating myself like garbage and making my life as miserable as possible for reasons that I still find hard to understand," she says. "It's almost impossible to tackle the root cause because, you know, so much of the kind of the help is focused on refeeding." You encountered a real range of different personas during your battle with anorexic disorder. The ones who helped her most were those who looked at her as an individual but also understood how the mind works.