i'd known that i'd needed treatment since i was 15, and i'd been trying iv like literally boxes, two plastic boxes that are like knee high full of journals. And the other end of that is, it also works against folks who are not necessarily fat because you sort of get this like, your body is perfect as it is. You don't need to change a gorgeous yet. Which just reinforces that same framework of thinking that there is a right kind of body to have,.  and that your body is being monitored by the people oroni, so did you eventually get into treatment? I did. So i was, i was kicked out of school, and then basically found