I've Been Depressed for a Long Time, and I'm Still Depressed

All o the faculties that i depended on before i went into depression were now utterly useless. My feeling life was was gone. And and my will, which has always been strong,. ihave always been able to exercise will power to work my way through difficulties, that was, that was shattered as well. As i worked my way through that darkness, i sometimes became r that way back there in in the woods, somewhere was this this sort of a primitive, a piece of animal lifein just some kind of existential reality. I don't know, maybef the life force, generally, that was alive. And so i now see the soul as that wild creature way back there in the