I Don't Want to Be Left for Another Woman

I don't want to have any secrets with the person i marries yet. There's a part of me that feels like a man loses a part of himself in not in shutting down any attraction or any like desire for other women. I know you can jerk off to other girls and n look at them and ogle. But i want that. As much as i don't ever want to be left for another woman, i do want, i think it's a bad sign if, if my man is not attracted to other women. It just matterd how much you talk about but who the hell knows? And, like, i just don't see any future at all. I