How to Deal With the Death of a Grandmother

A couple of years ago, my grandmother passed. And in that two weeks, i became almost manic. I would wake up at seven a m and go until 2 or 3 o'clock in the morning. Well, we get to michigan where the funeral is and i just crash. I have no energy at all,. And i realized that all of that was avoiding, avoiding dealing with the death of my grandmother...and so impact. Can i jump in before impact? Sure. What was the thinking that reinforced that behavior? Sure. Ah, then what then will do impact?Sure.