Dissymbolized Is the Lowest Point of My Residency So Far

He asked me why I didn't prescribe this medication and what was I thinking. He brought up a prior incident that happened in the week where the patient had almost transferred to our service. The smell of the bathroom when he was just sitting on the toilet with the seat down with my head in my hands, tearing up and crying as the weight of a month of intern year had set on me. And it's something I think about even to this day I still have this fear a little bit when I received texts not because I've done anything wrong but maybe because it's just very triggering. Dissymbolized is probably the lowest point of my residency so far"