"I am fully convinced god realization is the goal of human life. And i'm going to try, but i don't suppose i don't succeed," he says. He elaborates 38 cestin bve brasta chinna bramivana shate appratisto mah baho vimo o bram hanapate. After death, where is guarantee that i'll go to heaven? What'll happen to me? I'm not getting enlightenment and spiritual freedom?" "So like a cloud, he says, am the autumn cloud? It doesn't it's not part of a mass of rain clouds. It will not give rain."